I don't know what the heck I am feeling these days. I am so confused and frustrated. I feel depressed and sorry for myself at the same time being angry at myself for feeling that way. Knowing how lucky I am that I have so much in my life and that even with my disease it is still in such an early stage.
I just feel so overwhelmed by it all and I guess paralyzed by it all. I don't know how to make it better.
UGH...this is such wasted time feeling this way. It doesn't do any good.
I put a call into my neuro today. She's out sick with that nasty stomach but going around. So, hopefully I'll hear from her by tomorrow.
Right now, I just want to run away and hide but I won't...I'll keep on pushing through, feeling sorry for myself and feeling guilty for feeling sorry for myself. What a messed up situation.
toodles.
About Me
- TheatreChick93
- Massachusetts, United States
- I am 41 years old. I have been married to my husband for 15 years. We have a son who was born in April 1996. We live in Central Massachusetts with our dog Maggie (a black lab we adopted from the animal rescue league) and our cat Sam (a stray that adopted us) I graduated from college with a BFA in Theatre in 1993 (hence the name) and for a few years pursued a career as an actress. Then life took over and I got married, had a baby and decided to get a "real" job. In November 2004, I was diagnosed with Young Onset Parkinson's disease. In December 2004, I was hospitalized for surgery to remove an ectopic pregnancy. In December 2009, I was laid off from my job. In June 2010, my son was diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome at the age of 14. Stick around to see what happens next!
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