so, my 38th birthday was Wed. It pretty much sucked. The older I get the harder it gets.
I have been in a deep depression the past two weeks. BAD... can't shake it. Trying though.
As a result...and my EMOTIONAL EATING...I have gained 10 pounds. It really does boggle my mind how fast you can gain weight but how LONG it takes to lose it.
I am trying to get back on track. Or, at least off the one I'm currently on.
I have been a MAJOR BITCH to my family. I am so short fused...
I hate this time of year. November historically is just not a good month for me. It was the month when I tried to commit suicide at the age of 15, it was the month that I found out I had PD and that I was going to have a miscarriage...other various boughts of depression over the years always seem to happen in NOV. Shame it's the month my birthday is in because I do so love birthdays.
This year, due to financial restraints, I banned Paul from getting me anything. He did get me a card - a really sweet one, given the way I've been treating him - and a cake.
Thanksgiving is next week. I am trying to remember all that I am thankful for. There is much, I know. But, in the deep dark place that depression lies it is hard to remember them.
So, I take a deep breath and plunge into another day.
Toodles.
About Me
- TheatreChick93
- Massachusetts, United States
- I am 41 years old. I have been married to my husband for 15 years. We have a son who was born in April 1996. We live in Central Massachusetts with our dog Maggie (a black lab we adopted from the animal rescue league) and our cat Sam (a stray that adopted us) I graduated from college with a BFA in Theatre in 1993 (hence the name) and for a few years pursued a career as an actress. Then life took over and I got married, had a baby and decided to get a "real" job. In November 2004, I was diagnosed with Young Onset Parkinson's disease. In December 2004, I was hospitalized for surgery to remove an ectopic pregnancy. In December 2009, I was laid off from my job. In June 2010, my son was diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome at the age of 14. Stick around to see what happens next!
