As the year comes to a close....

Wow...I haven't written in a really long time. The craziness of the holiday's took over my life.

Christmas was good. Quiet but good. I was sick with a cold and with all the PD meds I'm on, I can't take ANY cold medicine. So it was interesting.

We're off to my parents house this weekend to do the Christmas thing. We're coming back on Sunday and will celebrate New Years with our friends H & N and their kids.

All in all 2006 was a good year. I am grateful for all I have. My family and my friends especially. I am so blessed with so many people who love me.

Here's to a wonderful and happy 2007!

Toodles

Selfish wish

I know I should be grateful for the fact that I have a job.

I know I should be grateful for the fact that i am able to still work

I know I should be grateful for the fact that i actually like the job I am doing.

But, I still wish I didn't have to work.


I could be such a more productive human being if I didn't have to go sit at a desk all day.

I could exercise more

I could keep my house in order.

i could actually get caught up on the laundry which has taken over my house.

*sigh*

Ok...I'm done. Must get ready for work now.

Toodles

Some would say I am manic....

Hi! Ok, so today I feel GREAT!!!

Haven't a clue why. Just know that I am NOT feeling depressed today. I'm just going to go with it.

My brother was recently diagnosed as being bi-polar and sometimes I think we all have touch of it in my family.

Anywhoo....I am officially in the Christmas spirit! Decorating is DONE... It looks like the Spirit of Christmas Past , Present & Future all threw up in my house! (hee, hee). Talk about deck the halls!! I just need to go get two wreaths today. One for each door.

Concert is tomorrow. It should be fun.

Ok, that's all I've got.

Toodles.

Home today

I decided to take the day off from work to get somethings done around the house.

I am finishing up decorations and doing laundry and writing out my Christmas Cards.

I sooooo could do the stay at home thing... I get so much accomplished. Although my back is not cooperating with me. I keep having to sit down every 30 minutes or so.

I need to lose weight. I just wish it wasn't so freakin' hard to do it.

Anyway, I'm feeling better today. It's my "good" week. :o)

I have my concert on Sunday. My parents are coming up for it. That'll be nice. They'll get to see the house all decorated.

Well, that's it for now...back to decorating.

Toodles.

Merry Christmas

Ok, my feeble attempt to get in the holiday spirit!

Enjoy!

Toodles

One last thing...

The company party on Saturday was nice. We had a good time.

The museum was amazing. The food was good. Got to socialize. Spent 1/2 an hour talking to our new VP and the President of the company without making a fool of myself. P was actually impressed with my ability to make small talk. (thank you years of acting...). All in all it was a fun night.

It was nice to spend some quality time with P too. ;o)

Toodles

Decorating...half done

So we finally decorated the tree at 3pm Sunday. It looks nice. I started to get into the spirit. I finished the living room. Paul put the lights on the bushes in front of the house. Now I just need to do the kitchen/familyroom/diningroom area. I think once it's all done I'll be able to enjoy it. At least I hope so....

Toodles

Faith - I'm Empty

I am really struggling with my relationship with God. Or, maybe not with God so much as my religion. I feel so empty about it. I am not sure why and it makes me very uneasy.

I always thought of myself as a person with a strong faith. In the belief that God has a plan for us and that everything happens for a reason. I still believe that.

My problem these days is that I have no desire to go to church or to pray or to be spiritual in any sense. And I can't figure out why.

I could blame it on all the crap that has been going on with the Catholic Church but it goes beyond that. That stuff has never gotten in my way before. I was able to ignore it and go to church for my own spiritual well being. It's almost like my faith has just disappeared. My well is dry and it's scary. It is what I usually fall back on when I am confused about what is going on in my life.

I don't know. Maybe it's this depression I seem to be in. Maybe it's carried over into my faith. My lack of joy in life these days. I want to be happy and spiritually satisfied...but I just can seem to find it in me. I keep looking for it with in myself but i just come up empty. Just completely empty.

Toodles

What is wrong with me????

Ok, usually I am the Christmas Queen. I live for decorating. I go all out. It is my favorite time of the year.

This year, I could care less......

I have absolutely no desire to do anything. I have not joy in it.

Maybe it's this depression that's causing it...I don't know.

B is all confused. He usually gets into it with me. He keeps asking...when are we going to hang the ornaments, when are you going to decorate the tops of the kitchen cabinets, can we make cookies??

I feel guilty.

I am going to try really hard to do it today. Maybe if I push myself, I'll find that spirit along the way.

We have my company holiday party tonight. I was looking forward to it a few weeks ago when i said we'd go. Today, I am just so blah about it. ho Hum...

Bleck...and Bah Humbug!

Toodles.

I love my son!

I am getting his bag ready for school and I open his lunch bag (which he takes his snack in everyday) and inside is a post it note that says, "Yum, Yum. Dear Mom, Thanks for packing the oreos! They were good. I really liked them! Love, Brian".

It just made my heart melt.


The science project on the rectum and anus is complete. He walked out the door with it this morning. I am feeling slightly guilty at the amount of help I gave him but he would have never completed it if I hadn't. Of course, I am passing down my bad habits of procrastination to him. Just because I work best under pressure doesn't mean he will. Must try and let him do more on his own with the next project. Apparently 5th grade is chock full of them! It's going to be a long school year...

Having lunch with my friend who had MS today. Her husband is divorcing her. Coward! He is suing for full physical custody of their son. I feel so awful for her.

TGIF!!

Toodles.