Apathy in a major way. It is just awful. In one way I am glad that I can recognize the difference between apathy and depression. I find if I keep busy I don't notice it. But as soon as I sit down and stop it comes flooding back.
Still have some nausea. I'm dealing with it.
Still tired but it's getting better.
Back at work full time this week. So far, it sucks. I am exhausted. I'm giving it two weeks. If by then I am still a mess I am going down the ADA road. Screw it. I have a disability, why not use what I can to help me. Working at home made a HUGE difference for me.
We bought one of those $20 scratch tickets for the Star Spangled Sweepstakes. $20 cash is the grand prize, 10 one million prizes, 40 $250 prizes. I'd take any of the above. The drawing is July 4th at 7:45. Man, wouldn't that be nice to win that. Dreams of grandiose!!
AND....WTF...I have been dreaming about having babies again. It is in my mind over and over again about having twin girls. WTF??? I am hopeless....
So, I've discovered scrapbooking...just starting out. I think it could easily become an obsession. It's a creative outlet for me.
I've been playing the piano more...that seems to help the apathy. Who the heck knows why.
Well, that's about it. Noone coming for the 4th...sucks that it's in the middle of the week. My sister may come this weekend...we'll see.
OK, this was a major random rant...sorry...
Toodles.
About Me
- TheatreChick93
- Massachusetts, United States
- I am 41 years old. I have been married to my husband for 15 years. We have a son who was born in April 1996. We live in Central Massachusetts with our dog Maggie (a black lab we adopted from the animal rescue league) and our cat Sam (a stray that adopted us) I graduated from college with a BFA in Theatre in 1993 (hence the name) and for a few years pursued a career as an actress. Then life took over and I got married, had a baby and decided to get a "real" job. In November 2004, I was diagnosed with Young Onset Parkinson's disease. In December 2004, I was hospitalized for surgery to remove an ectopic pregnancy. In December 2009, I was laid off from my job. In June 2010, my son was diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome at the age of 14. Stick around to see what happens next!
