Trying to be positive today....

My face is still at it today and I am so stiff on my right side.

But, I am trying to stay positive today. Being depressed doesn't do anyone any good. I am going to dig down and find the strength to push through this.

Still haven't heard from the Dr. yet. I'm figuring at this point I'll probably just wait till my appt on Feb 9th. (2 weeks)

I am going to ask her about adding an agonist and about getting an antidepressant. I think the combination will help.

I wonder sometimes if my expectation of how good I should feel is too high. I keep thinking I should be pain free...stiffness free..completely all the time. Maybe I need to adjust my expectation of that. Maybe it's my little piece of denial about having PD.

Sometimes I feel like I am being such a baby about the whole thing. I just need to suck it up and deal. I control they way to feel about things. I should just cut the crap and do it. Just do it! Lose weight, exercise, clean the house, do the laundry, spend time with my son, be a loving wife, be a good daughter a good sister, a good friend, a good worker.

I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY AND HEALTHLY!!! Not much to ask for. And I know that I hold the keys to it all. I just haven't found the ones that fit the locks yet.

But I will...I am just going to keep trying until I do. There are no other options that will work for me. I just need to keep trying and not give up.

Toodles.