apathy

I've written about this before.

Apathy is a psychological term for a state of indifference — where an individual is unresponsive or "indifferent" to aspects of emotional, social, or physical life. Clinical apathy is considered to be at an elevated level, while a moderate level might be considered depression, and an extreme level could be diagnosed as a dissociative disorder. The physical aspect of apathy associated with physical deterioration, muscle loss, and lack of energy is called lethargy — which has many pathological causes as well.

That's me these days. I just don't care about much except I do care about the fact that I don't care about anything. I suppose that's good.

I feel like I am stuck. I know what I need to do but either I don't know how to do it or I just to care to do it. I HATE feeling this way.

My life is good. I have so much love and goodness in my life.

I want to be that person who has so much motivation to everything that they should be doing.

As a mother
as a wife
as a person with PD
as a woman.

I started a new med today. I've taken one dose and it makes me feel "weird". We'll see.

Work sucks these days...not as bad as Sales was but just in general terms. I just wish I didn't have to work.

ok..that's it. must get back to work.

Toodles