Ok, so I don't know how I feel about this. I get obsessed every month still that I might be PG but then when I find out I am not, I am fine with it. Not all crazyily depressed like I use to be.
I know that getting PG again would not be the best thing for us. I am still dealing with my PD. Adding a baby to our lives could make it difficult. There is already such a burden on P to take care of me & B, how could I expect him to then take care of a baby.
But, on the other hand, I feel like having a baby would be good for me. It would give me someone to take care of other than myself.
I don't know...I am so confused by all this. I know that God has a plan but I just can't seem to figure out what that plan is suppose to be.
P and I have been miserable lately. I hope it's just that we need a vacation. P is so angry all the time. He is so nitpicky about EVERYTHING. He is always yelling at me and at Brian and the dog. I think it's just stress. He has so much on his mind.
I fell like I am in such a rut. I can't seem to find the strength to get motivated to do anything!! I don't know...I am just so confused...I hope that someday soon I'll have some clarity about it all. I hope so.
About Me
- TheatreChick93
- Massachusetts, United States
- I am 41 years old. I have been married to my husband for 15 years. We have a son who was born in April 1996. We live in Central Massachusetts with our dog Maggie (a black lab we adopted from the animal rescue league) and our cat Sam (a stray that adopted us) I graduated from college with a BFA in Theatre in 1993 (hence the name) and for a few years pursued a career as an actress. Then life took over and I got married, had a baby and decided to get a "real" job. In November 2004, I was diagnosed with Young Onset Parkinson's disease. In December 2004, I was hospitalized for surgery to remove an ectopic pregnancy. In December 2009, I was laid off from my job. In June 2010, my son was diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome at the age of 14. Stick around to see what happens next!
