Today's Rant!

Money, Homework and PD

Money - we have none. Bill collectors call daily...at least three different ones. I am worried about P. He is managing the best he can but the stress of "juggling" the finance are definately getting to him. I thought by this stage of the game in life we would not be living like this. We live paycheck to paycheck...litterally. I can't tell you how many times our account has been overdrawn in the past few months. It just sucks. I've been bringing my lunch to work everyday, I haven't stepped foot in a store (like Target) in months. We decided not to do Christmas gifts for each other this year and we are scrapping our Feb vacation. We are now considering getting rid of the cable TV and our YMCA membership. Last winter with the Oil prices and this summer with the gas prices just put us in such a hole. I try to remind myself that we are still in a far better place then alot of people. It still just sucks. It causes so much stress.

Homework - it is the bain of my existance. We spent 3 hours with B last night doing homework. Talk about stress. P and I disagree about whether or not he gets too much of it. I think it's ridiculus the amount he comes home with. What the hell is he doing in school all day?? We don't get home until 6pm and he goes to bed at 9pm. There just isn't enough time. They don't consider the working parent. We encourage him to do his homework at the afterschool program, but he wants to play with the other kids. I can't blame him for that. He should be allowed to be a kid!! And, everything is taught to the test. We have something called MCAS's here in MA. It's a standardize test they give every year starting in 3rd grade. This is to comply with the No Child Left Behind Act. In therory I agree with the NCLB act, but it needs to be revamped. There is such a focus on taking this test now that they have taken all the fun out of learning. UGH!!

PD - SUCKS!!! I am doing better. Taking the amantadine three times a day now has made me less stiff. That's a good thing. But, now I am so freaking tired. And it seems to really wear off now where as before it was kind of a slow let down. I like my job but I really wish I didn't have to work. It kills me to sit at a desk all day. I am in so much pain by the end of the day. I try to get up and walk around every hour or so but sometimes that's just not possible. I got a new chair, that helps a bit. I just do so much better on the weekends when I can move around and take a "cat nap" around 2pm. It's only for 20 - 30 minutes but it rejuvinates me for the rest of the day. I feel like I am powerless over this disease and I am powerless over making the decision not to work because we can't financially swing me not working....UGH!!!!!

Other than that, things are just peachy!!

Toodles.