Is it Friday yet?

Random thoughts:

Husband..... is stressed beyond imagination. Work is just crazy for him. He is on the verge of a breakdown I think. I am doing my best to keep everything at home non-eventful but I think I am not doing a very good job.

Child.... is off at my girlfriends house today. School ended yesterday...Camp doesn't start till Monday. Tomorrow he's with my mother-in-law for the day.

Party....Planning for big summer party July 2nd. Only half feel like having it but we do it every year and it will be good to have everyone over. It's just so much work....

Speaking of work, it has been mercifully slow the past two days. Which is good because I don't have enough brain power to manage work and home stuff.

Piano!!! I am finally moving my mother's piano from her home in CT to my home in MA!!! They will pick it up Friday and deliver it to us on Sunday. I am beyond excited. I haven't had a piano since...well...since I moved out of my mother's house 13 plus years ago. I have a keyboard...but it's just not the same. My neighbor, who's kids we watch every morning and take to school, is insisting on paying the cost to move it. I keep telling her she doesn't need to do that...but she won't give up. So, I gave in.

Money...ugh..the bain of our existence. Checking account was overdrawn this AM...adding to the stress that P is feeling these days. We just miss calculated some things. First time that has happened in eons. (We had some financial struggles when we first got married and had a baby 9 months later...) Finances are tight but we are definitely in a good place. We just need to get our spending in check.

PD...I am feeling ok. Body is stiff and tired but I am learning to adjust my life to it. I just hate that I don't have the energy to do stuff. I really need to get back into a routine of exercise. It does really help. But, right now I just feel so ....well...blecky. That dark cloud seems to be getting closer. I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad think that I can recognize when depression is looming. I try to fight it but sometimes I feel it's a losing battle.

My messed up menstrual cycle...so have I mentioned my wacky cycle the past year. All over the map. 25 days...28 days...32 days...40 days! Normal bleeding...only bleeding two days then nothing...spotting for 10 days...I am sooooo over this. Dr. says it's just normal ups and downs and the fact that I am over 35 now. Mentioned perimenopause...GREAT!!...says it could last 10 or 15 YEARS!!! yes that is YEARS!! Oh, my poor husband. The cure is birth control pills. But, I can't take them because I have Factor V Leiden. (yeah me!) It's a vicious circle. Plus, I still hold on to that miniscule hope that maybe we might have another child. I know realistically it's a crazy notion...both because physically it just ain't going to happen and because of my PD. But, I still have that glimmer. We don't use any form of birth control so ya never know..... Anyway all this to say here it is CD15 and I have cramps and am spotting and a massive headache....WTF??? I just don't get it. I suppose I should go see a GYN but I just don't have the energy to deal with going to another dr right now. I still haven't called to get my baseline monogram that Dr. B wants me to have or the dermatologist to check out my freckled Irish skin (I'm about as white as the come...no lie, I actually have a blue tinge b/c you can see my veins). There is just so much to do.

Now I feel guilty for complaining. I know my life is good and I am blessed with the things I have. I just get so overwhelmed sometimes.

Anyway, back to work. Only 15 minutes to go...and three emails just came in. Murphy's law...

Later