So, for about 24 hours this week I thought I was pregnant again. I took a Answer Quick and Simple HPT and it came up positive but very faintly. I waited and tested the next morning and it was a BFN. I was very sad. I was so excited to think I was pregnant. I had such a vivid dream this month that we were going to have a girl. It was so hard to explain it just felt so real. But, it wasn't meant to be. I got my period the very next day.
My EDD from my last PG is coming up. July 7th. I was also excited to think that I was PG again before my EDD. I have so many mixed emotions about this whole ordeal. I don't really know how I feel or what I want. I feel this tugging to have another child. But, I know that because of my PD it probably isn't the best idea. However, since I've been on the meds and my CPAP machine, I feel so much better. I think that is why I feel like I could handle taking care of another baby. I don't know. It's so confusing.
I need to take care of myself. I need to lose weight and get in better shape by exercising. I have to prepare my body to better handle what it is going to go through in the next few years.
Well, I need to get to cleaning the house and stuff. We have a house full this weekend. I hope we have and enjoyable time. I don't want it to be stressful. I hope it's not. I know it can get to Paul sometimes.
About Me
- TheatreChick93
- Massachusetts, United States
- I am 41 years old. I have been married to my husband for 15 years. We have a son who was born in April 1996. We live in Central Massachusetts with our dog Maggie (a black lab we adopted from the animal rescue league) and our cat Sam (a stray that adopted us) I graduated from college with a BFA in Theatre in 1993 (hence the name) and for a few years pursued a career as an actress. Then life took over and I got married, had a baby and decided to get a "real" job. In November 2004, I was diagnosed with Young Onset Parkinson's disease. In December 2004, I was hospitalized for surgery to remove an ectopic pregnancy. In December 2009, I was laid off from my job. In June 2010, my son was diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome at the age of 14. Stick around to see what happens next!
